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I am grateful
Yes, very grateful
For the opportunity
To raise this son -
Us and Heavenly Father.

When he was a newborn baby
He had such questions in his eyes
Seeming to ask,
"What on earth am I doing here -
On earth?"

As he grew to boyhood
The questions never stopped
He was perceptive, imaginative, energetic.
He wanted to know everything
And wanted to try it for himself.

As a teenager
He was in too much of a hurry
To wait for the answers
And jumped into life in a whirlwind
Desperate to experience -
Everything.

Dark clouds rolled over the years
As he turned
From the teachings of his youth,
And poison
Seeped into his soul.

Beneath the sweet life
He discovered bitterness and regret.
So called friends disappeared
Only family remained -
Us and Heavenly Father.

As a tug turning an ocean liner
He changed his life around
Discouragement nearly overcame him
As he realised that
A ship in a harbour is safe
But that's not what ships are built for.

Endurance became stronger
Gratitude returned as a way of life
And new friendships were formed
But the scars of the past
Took years to heal.

When he was a little boy
It was my arms he ran to
For comfort when he was hurt.
Now there is another woman
He takes in his arms,
And I am grateful,
Grateful they have found each other.

No longer will there be
The loneliness of the search.
No longer will I see
The question in his eyes,
"When will I ever find her?
The one I will walk with
Through all eternity?"

Now I see the tension
Slipping away from him.
He had the faith to wait
Now he has the hope
And at last he will find
Love.

Olive Redmond 21 June 2003
Written a month after Owen first introduced us to Moana.